"I look to You."

These past three and a half months have been the hardest of my life.
My life did a complete 180, and I was back to square one...and forced to make the most difficult decision of my life.
Because of everything-and how hard it was on me-I decided to give up listening to any secular music for lent. That way, I could spend that time in my jeep or in my room thinking about and praising God through music that glorified Him.
My family has listened to Selah since their first album in 2005, but their most recent has really struck a chord in me...I've listened to it non-stop for the past month. There are seven (!!) songs I cannot get over, but the one that makes me cry every time is "I Look to You".

You can listen to it here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j3Yl9j4EytE&feature=related

The phrase that sings "I don't know if I'm gonna make it; nothing to do but lift my head", I always like to think that instead of lifting my head, I lift my hands...and that just sends shivers up my spine to think that at my lowest points, when I feel like I cannot possibly do anything or continue on, I turn to God and am still able to praise Him. I just love that...
"when melodies are gone, in You I hear a song"...these past three months have been such a solid reminder that I really can only find true joy in Him, that I really can only find true peace in Him, that I need to TRUST Him...and REJOICE in Him--and PRAISE Him...no matter what, through it all.
-and although some moments felt like what must've been Hell, I have grown so much just within that time period, and I am only planning on continuing to do so; it has made me SO-THANKFUL and SO much wiser and brought me SO much closer to God. it's amazing how He works like that...
"and we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose."
- Romans 8:28, NIV.