-------------------------------------

i don't know.
this could break my heart or save me...
nothing's real until you let go completely...
so here i go with all my thoughts i've been saving, so here i go with all my fears weighing on me...

[five years] and I'm still sober...
'picked all my weeds but kept the flowers,
but I know it's never really over.

i don't know.
i could crash and burn, but maybe at the end of this road i might catch a glimpse of me...
so i won't worry about my timing; I wanna get it right--no comparing, second guessing-no, not this time...

[five years] and I'm still breathin...
'been a long road since those hands I left my tears in, but I know...
it's never really over--no...
-wake up...wake up.

[five years] and I'm still standin here,
[five years] and I'm gettin better-yeah,
[five years] and I still am...
[five years] and it's still harder now,
[five years] i've been livin here without you now,
[five years, five years]...
[five years] and i'm still breathin,
[five years] and i still remember it,
[five years] and...wake up.

[five years] and i'm still sober...
'picked all my weeds but kept the flowers.

- kelly clarkson.

like dorothy said, there ain't no place like home...(or somethin like that.)

today, as my family pulled in our driveway, i was thankin the Lord for bein back home where i can finally see some stinkin stars again...and as i walked into my house, i noticed thousands of tiny flashes goin off in our backyard...

and i realized...they were fireflies.

in the field behind our house, there was such the abundance of fireflies turnin off & on so recurrently that we all agreed it was comparable to bein in a stadium at a huge event with camera flashes goin off all over the place.
it was such an amazing thing to behold and one of my most favorite things i have ever seen...we were like -all- in awe.

: )

"i can hear that lullaby of a midnight train; it sings to me and it sounds familiar...and it calls to me like a warm wind blowin...and that's home to me-it feels like home to me..."
- little big town.

: )

"willingness means letting God's will become your own."
- anonymous.

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future...when you call upon me and come and pray to me, I will listen to you. You will seek me and you will find me--when you seek me with all your heart.'"
- Jeremiah 29:11-13, NIV.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own..."
- Matthew 6:24, NIV.

"Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends...So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love."
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 & 13, NIV.